Bubble Bath Contemplations

Whenever I take a bubble bath, like just a minute ago, in our new jetted tub, I think.... My thoughts have been about my littlest sister Tammy who passed away 2 months ago. (She is at the far left in the Photo above, right next to me.) You wonder why I think about her, when I am relaxing in a great tub? Well that room has many memories of her.

She was the first guest to use it . We were even still in the process of working at getting it finished when she came for another week visit. She was so happy to have a bathroom downstairs by the guest room so she did not have to go upstairs in the middle of the night. One morning she came up and was brushing her long blond hair and was complaining about all the tangles. I started talking about good conditioners and she said her hair was just tied in knots because she had put her head under the water when the jets were on. I told her not to do that because there is a warning that her hair could get caught in the intake and drown her. She wished she knew that before but was happy she had made it out alive. We joked about it.

Also when I use the great bubble bath with Eucalyptus in it, I think of her because she gave it too us. She was going to come up another time for a week with her and Emma for spring break and our whole family got sick. We were bummed and she did not want to come and get Emma sick. So we were laying around and heard the door bell ring. It was Tammy and Emma, they had brought us a huge get well gift box full of stuff. She had tons of cold medicine in there for kids and adults, also Echinacea. She had heads of Garlic and Ginger which she chopped up and had us eat raw drinking it down with orange juice. There was also lots of different soups and this great bubble bath to use to help relieve congestion. There was also a kids movie the kids had wanted that she bought for us to watch. Plus tons of great magazines right off the supermarket shelf. Just to keep us all entertained during our illness. I love her. It was so kind of her to drive 3 hours to bring us this wonderful gift box. She did not stay, just told us she loved us and gave us the full box and then her and Emma drove 3 hours back home.

See that is the kind of person she was, she was generous and so great. So when I take my bubble baths and think about her I cry. She was such an important person in my life and I miss her tremendously. There is also a Wind chime in our back yard made from coconuts and bamboo, that she found at the store one day and thought it would be cool in our back yard. She even hung it up out there and then showed us. When I am working in the Garden and hear it ringing, I think of her talking to me saying "hi" in the wind.

Yesterday we were making frozen yogurt in a terrific ice cream maker that she gave us last Christmas. She spent Christmas eve with us and all the kids were in the nativity. When I mentioned that Tammy had given us the maker. My kids commented on how much they missed her, I told them I missed her too. Jerika responded that she wished she was dead so she could see Tammy. We said we would see her again and we would miss her too much if she was dead. It think she just wanted to empathize with her mommy's sadness and let her know that she missed her just as much as her mommy did. It was sweet.

I miss Tammy and want everyone to know that she was a tremendous person. She died a crazy, freak death and it was way to early. Still I am at peace as I know that it was just her time. Her life was full of generosity and love and she had a personality that pulled everyone in and made you feel great. She was vibrant and energetic and I miss her and love her dearly.